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My First Half of My Life
Episode 37
I can buy my own pretty ring.
I also will cherish myself well.
Right now, you can already tell me
what you really want to say to me.
Was it about you and Luo Zijun,
- you two--- It's not us two.
It's just me.
It's me,
one-sided,
that fell in love with Luo Zijun.
I think
I should be honest with you.
Does she know?
That's why, she suddenly wanted to meet Jonas.
That's why, she even especially texted me earlier
saying that she thinks Jonas is quite good.
What are you two treating me as?
Tang Jing, don't misunderstand.
Luo Zijun didn't want to hurt you in any way.
She is deliberately trying to maintain her distance from me.
And you were afraid that she'll go date some other guy
so you hurriedly came here and admit things to me.
Tang Jing, in terms of responsibility and moral obligations,
or from all other aspects,
I indeed should have controlled myself better.
But if we are going to look at it mainly just from the aspect of feelings,
I should be honest to you, to me, and to her.
I think that you and me
wouldn't want to burden the rest of our lives just for a dishonest
love or marriage.
Are you done speaking?
If you're done, you can leave now.
I don't want to see you again.
And also Luo Zijun. Please tell her that.
Wait a minute!
Tell me. Why must it be Luo Zijun?
There are so many women who loves you.
Why must it be Luo Zijun?
I also asked myself the same question.
I can't come up with any specific reason. Maybe it's because
she makes me feel real and relaxed.
I caused you to be anxious.
Maybe.
At the same time, I also makes you feel anxious.
Don't you think so?
It's not because you asked me to do something for you
or I asked you to do something for me.
It is also because of this deliberately not asking each other to do things for each other...
Say, Tang Jing, we are the same kind of person.
This success, excellence, and freedom halo above our head
gave us such huge invisible pressure.
Letting us having to maintain this kind of appearance in all our relationship with other people.
And we still have to pretend that it's effortless.
Tang Jing, do you understand--
In front of you, I indeed am anxious.
I indeed worry about personal gains and losses.
For these past years, I have always prepared myself for the appearance of a better woman
to replace me.
I have repeatedly forecast this result today in my heart numerous times.
I even thought about how what I should say and do
to let us two withdraw from this in a not very awkward manner.
So that in the succeeding days,
we can still continue being friends.
But the only thing that I didn't expect is
that this person is actually Luo Zijun.
Tang Jing,
this matter has nothing to do with Luo Zijun.
She didn't do anything wrong.
Letting you love her
is the greatest mistake that she did.
Tang Jing!
Tang Jing, are you home?
Tang Jing!
Tang Jing.
- Waiter, the bill.- Wait a minute.
If He Han didn't relay it to you, then let me tell it to you again.
Stay away from me. I don't want to see you again.
Tang Jing, I really didn't do anything against you.
I don't even dare to think about it.
I'll severe all communications with He Han today. I will not see him anymore.
I'll resign from Chen Xing today, okay?
Move aside. I'm going to work now.
How come you are still going to work?
Or else, what?
You feel that I should hide at home alone, bury my head and cry in pain,
and lament our destroyed friendship?
You are not that important.
- Tang Jing.- Get lost.
- Tang Jing.- Don't follow me!
- Tang Jing, I...- You're not allowed to talk.
If you say one more word,
I will then tell everyone
what good thing you and He Han did.
Tang Jing, what really do you want me to do
so that you will be willing to believe me?
If you are me, what will you do?
Do you need to ask? Get a knife and cut the water off.
Treasure Tang Jing and stay away from Luo Zijun.
By doing that, you are hurting three people.
So you think you are being honest now, am I right?
You are honest with yourself.
How about your rationality?
You only were honest to yourself.
Have you been honest to other people?
Being honest to oneself but losing rationality, that's an animal.
Then you think that I am a shameless and obscene guy?
I didn't say so.
He Han, let me ask you a question.
- You must answer me honestly.- Say it.
- Did you and Luo Zijun already have sex?- No.
- Really?- Never.
Really, never.
You also didn't expect it, right?
That's why, Old Zhuo, take back your animal comment.
I also am almost forty years old.
I know if this is a rational or just a rash decision that I made.
Then it means that you really love Luo Zijun?
You want to marry her?
If she is willing to.
What about Tang Jing? She waited ten years for you.
Old Zhuo, it's not me trying to pass the responsibility.
These past ten years,
Tang Jing and I, I...
we have just been acting like a perfect pair.
We both actually don't trust each other.
I felt it. I also believe that she felt it.
Then what have you been doing all this time?! You should have said so earlier.
What you said is right. These are all my fault.
That's why, once she has calmed down, I will go explain things to her and ask for her punishment.
No matter what she'll do, I'll accept it.
What is still the use of that to her?
Hello.
He Han, where are you?
Hurry and look at your WeChat account. Something bad has happened.
What WeChat account?
Just look at it first.
What's wrong?
Let me see.
Tang Jing already confronted He Han?
Do you want to call He Han and clarify things?
How am I supposed to ask about this kind of things?
Actually, for the three of them,
it is also not some bad thing to clarify things.
This Tang Jing has been coming to threaten me all day just for Luo Zijun.
I just tried to warn her a little so she can understand what's really happening.
Everyone is now more relaxed.
Tang Jing came to see you?
What did you tell her?
Actually, I didn't really say anything.
Just about that dinner last time, she asked if it was He Han who fetched Luo Zijun.
I then said the truth.
Nothing can really happen with saying such thing, right?
There must be something else that happened between them.
That was obviously deliberate.
They were the one who bothered me first.
I was peacefully working there but they have to send Luo Zijun over.
They even warned and threatened me.
Chen Junsheng, you also have a fault in this.
You already are divorced with Luo Zijun.
You are my husband.
Have you felt that your concerns for your ex-wife is way more than what you have for me?
It is exactly because I am your husband, shouldn't you discuss me first
if you have any decision or problem?
The current situation is me, you, He Han, and Zijun are working in the same company.
With Tang Jing posting such a message,
how are we going to work together and interact later in the office?
May I ask you to give He Han my resignation letter.
What is it?
Luo Zijun's resignation letter.
She asked me to give it to He Han.
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You didn't go to work today?
We are about to leave the hospital already.
No need... Ziqun came to fetch us.
How about this then?
You just go to Uncle Cui's house and wait for me.
Okay. Okay. Just that then.
It was Junjun. She said she wanted to come visit you.
Baojian, are you happy?
Junjun, come over and help me push him.
Help me push him.
Baojian, don't rush. I'll go open the door for us.
She even has keys now?
Come, come in.
What's wrong? Your complexion looks very bad. Have you been crying these past days?
Come.
You must be tired.
- Close your eyes and recuperate. Okay?- What's wrong with you? Why does your face look so bad? Have you been crying?- No.
I am asking you. Asking you.
What's there to ask?
Right now,
only one person can make your sister sad or cry.
He Han.
Junjun, let me tell you.
As long as you two sincerely like each other,
I really feel that it's find whoever you offend.
Stop saying nonsense already, okay?
I am against that. I have a morality limit.
People now say that you have to guard against fire, robbers, and your best friend.
If you steal the boyfriend of your best friend,
you will regret it forever.
Can you set your sight far? Can you?
Maybe your sister and He Han are the match made in Heaven.
Isn't it? Tang Jing is the matchmaker.
She is only the person that will bring He Han to your sister's front.
Or else, how could your sister and He Han get connected?
Really, not thinking.
Hey, Junjun, why didn't you go to work today?
- I already resigned.- Re...
Did He Han help you look for another better job?
No. I just don't want to work together with He Han, Ling Ling, and Chen Junsheng.
Are you crazy?!
You really are coming back to wrap and sell wantons with us?
You really want to die already!
You worked hard to go in circles and you just circled back?
Why?
I know already.
You want to prove to Tang Jing that you and He Han has a clean relationship, is that it?
Do you want me to award you?
- Let people learn from you, Comrade Leizhi?- Zhen Zhu...
Sorry. Sorry.
I have disturbed you. I'll lower down my voice.
We'll talk outside. Close your eyes...
Sorry.
Go out... Let's talk outside.
I really must give you two a scolding.
- Junjun, say--- Hey, let me ask you.
Are those on the bed your clothes?
And those medicines, they are all yours too, right?
Right. I brought them over yesterday.
His son already has no objection? He let you move in here already?
I had been taking care of his father day and night.
He was able to see it.
Right now, your Uncle Cui not only can talk,
he can already walk with assistance. Right?
If I don't care for him,
how much money must he spend to hire a nursing aid as good as me?
He is not stupid.
Then...didn't his son tell you that you have an ulterior motive?
I signed this.
What is that thing that you still have to sign it?
How come you signed such a thing?
Comrade Xue Zhen Zhu, this is not about the money. This is an insult.
What is that thing?
Look. It writes here
that my mother guarantees that she won't marry Uncle Cui,
will not share with his house and assets. Isn't that a joke?
Why must you not want them?
If you took care of him for three to five years, why must you not have a share in them?
You two have the freedom to love each other. What right does his son have to be against it?
You can choose to not get married with him or refuse everything.
But he has not right to force you to sign an unfair contract, do you know that?
- Why must you refuse all those things?- Enough already. Don't be noisy anymore.
I am not stupid.
I already consulted this to a lawyer.
This kind of guarantee letter has not much use.
Your Uncle Cui now can talk better and better as the day goes by.
Right? If one day he tells me that he wants to marry me, then I will get married already
Who dares to hinder that?
If anyone hinders it, let me tell you, I'll go sue him.
I'll sue him for mistreating an elder. Do you guys understand?
And also, you two don't know.
Why must people sign guarantee letters?
Why? It is because everything can't be guaranteed
that's why we sign such a thing. That's why, bullshit this guarantee letter.
Dumbfounded?
Your social experiences are still few, right?
Who can bully your mother? Tell me.
Right now, no matter what,
I already have a place to stay for the rest of my life.
Although it can't be perfect,
my present is already peacefully stable.
It's just that you two sisters...
Let me tell you. You...
- and also you...- Aren't I'm doing well right now? Why must you lecture me?
I am now living separately from Bai Guang. He treats me better than previously.
He even gives me living allowances every month.
How about Ah Huei? Does he still come to look for you?
Sometimes, he comes.
Why does he come? Why does he still come look for you?
Could it be that because he saw you're business already doing good, he is scheming about something?
It's not that.
Not that. He came to borrow money from you, am I right?
- No. He just comes to sit around.- Zhen Zhu!
I know already. That...I'll be there right away.
You two just wait. I'll be right back to brain wash you two.
Just wait.
Hurry up. We're just waiting for you.
I won't go anymore. Help me watch them instead.
No matter what, you must let them finish the budget.
The difference must not be more that 30%. Tell them to make it as detailed as possible.
Okay.
I know that I shouldn't ask.
But...if possible, I still want to know.
You three...
Are you free tonight? Let's drink together at Old Zhuo's place.
Sure. Then see you later tonight.
Hey, Xiao Huang.
Is the new beach version of Xiaoxiaole made by your group?
Quite fun. Can you help ask for some life for me?
That fun?
I'll help you ask for some then.
Miss!
- Auntie.- Are you doing well?
Long time no see. Are you doing well?
Yes.
Auntie, who are you looking for this time?
I'm looking for Lou Zijun.
Luo Zijun already resigned.
I know.
She already resigned?
I didn't know that. Why did she resign?
That I don't know very clearly.
This child, how come she didn't tell me that she resigned?
Really, why did she resign?
Auntie, I really don't know.
You really don't know?
This...
Auntie, what's wrong with you?
My stomach, don't know what I ate this morning.
No, where is your bathroom? I need to go to the bathroom.
Auntie, get out the door then turn left.
- Okay. Thank you.- You're welcome.
Okay. I'll just go to the bathroom.
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When you go out later, help get me a latte.
Sure. Remember to give me some bonus.
Hey, I noticed that your complexion isn't looking well these past days.
Don't mention it anymore. Too exhausting.
He Han didn't come during the morning meeting. Don't know if he'll come this afternoon.
Tell me. How does Chen Junsheng compare to He Han?
Lacks guts. Doesn't compare to even a half of He Han.
But a person like him
who works very timidly and over cautious also has its advantage.
Very strong maneuverability.
And also, you don't need to worry in making mistakes if you follow him.
Of course, don't expect any miracles too.
Could Chen Junsheng be the next Vice CEO?
I initially wasn't sure yet.
But look at how He Han hasn't been focused at work lately.
I suspect that the board of directors might do something in advance.
He wouldn't have ended his engagement with Tang Jing just because of Luo Zijun, right?
Lower down your voice.
How come there is still someone else?
Who was that?
Coming. Coming.
Coming! Coming!
Junjun! Why didn't you tell me?!
Such a huge thing, why didn't you tell me?!
Ha?! I...why didn't you tell me?!
What happened?
I already told you about my resignation.
Oh, my, your resignation...you...
Resigning or not is just a small matter.
He Han, already confessed to you? He has already broken it up with Tang Jing? Am I right?
Who told you?
I am your mother. What do I do not know?
Let me tell you.
When you were at your Uncle Cui's house, I already felt that something is not right with you.
You were bore and raised by me.
Whatever happens to you, let me tell you, I can sense it here.
- Do you know?- Let me tell you.
You already are now a sixty year old person, not a sixteen year old little lady.
Remember that in those health TV shows,
they say that an old person should drink more water, sleep more, and worry less.
- Or else, it will be easy to get Alzheimer's or Parkinson's.- Right. Right.
Isn't that what happened to that Auntie Wang from our alley?
- That's right. That's right. That Auntie Wang was quite pitiful.- Right...
- You should exercise more.- Do you know that in this world...
Stop changing the topic!
Right now, it's the pivotal point of your life and not mine.
You like that man and he likes you too.
The important point is, he is He Han.
You got the top prize!
Stop thinking already.
Thinking that why the top prize has to fall on you and not on somebody else.
Just go and claim the prize!
Mom, others don't know about my relationship with Tang Jing but don't you?
Why are you being this excited?
To put it plainly, this lottery ticket isn't mine to begin with.
There doesn't really exist any talk about winning the prize or not.
Getting all worked up.
Junjun, let me tell you.
A man and a lottery ticket are the same.
There isn't any name on it.
What stealing, picking up,
or waited after falling in line for,
just take the lottery ticket and claim the prize and it's yours.
Okay already. Don't interfere with my business anymore.
Right? I already made a decision so just let me be.
Just like you and Uncle Cui's matter, did Ziqun and I have any objection?
Didn't we still follow what you want?
What decision?
You are giving up both He Han and your work? That is your decision?
No, that is severing your own retreat path. What would you do from now on?
I'll just look for a job again.
I'll distance myself from He Han, Tang Jing, Chen Junsheng, and Ling Ling.
Isn't that better? In my new work environment,
I also can find a new boyfriend there.
New boyfriend...
The important point is you like He Han. How then can you still like any other person in the future?
I don't!
You don't like He Han?
If you don't like He Han,
I have lived in vain for these sixty years.
Do you know that? You little girl should listen to my words.
He Han still isn't bad. You...
Who came, mom?
- Auntie.- Oh, Tang Jing.
- Why are you here?- I...
That...your Uncle Cui like to eat this eight treasure fried rice.
There is one that is near your house that makes a very delicious version of it so I especially came here to buy them.
And in passing, wait for you to come home from work...
No, how about this? I will just be frank with you.
I especially came here to look for you.
In passing, buy some eight treasures fried rice and I even bought you one.
Auntie, other than the eight treasures fried rice,
what really is the reason that you are looking for me?
That...you...what are you trying to do that you are pulling a luggage? Going for a business trip?
I am going to visit a friend.
Visiting your friend?
Listen to me. That...I'll just make it short. I'll just say a few words.
Because I also don't have much time. I have to hurry and rush home to make your Uncle Cui food.
Women like us who are not that skilled,
only knows to circle our life around basic kitchen needs.
Unlike you. Really, I envy you a lot.
Look at you. If you want to work, you go to work.
If you want to go out and look for a friend, you just go look for him. You...
Honestly, our Junjun...
can't be like you.
Auntie, what is it that you really want to tell me?
Tang Jing, it's like this.
I feel that you've always had a smooth sailing life.
You get to have anything that you want.
But there is an old saying that says,
"Wan Bao knows the whole book except a corner of it."
What it means is that no matter how good you are,
you will also have something that you won't be able to achieve no matter how you force it.
That's why, I'm thinking that if that's the case, why don't you just do others a favor
and help others get their happiness?
Auntie, what you mean is I should allow Luo Zijun to get her happiness, am I right?
Not only Zijun, also He Han.
He Han likes Junjun and Junjun also likes him.
Anyone can see that but there is just a you blocking in between them, do you know that?
Auntie, do you still remember the reason why Chen Junsheng left Luo Zijun?
Do you still remember how you went to the company to hit Ling Ling?
I know. I know.
I...that...what you mean...
I...listen. Let me tell you.
I understand what you meant. Don't be mad.
Don't be mad, really.
If you and He Han are already married now,
and if you two already have a child,
if I came here to say these words today,
I am already not sensible, right?
Men for me is like a clothing.
Even if it's a branded clothing,
but then you find it unsuitable for you so you'll just left it there, left if for a long time.
For you and the clothing, it was all just a waste. That's why, why don't you just
let two fated people be together? Right?
Moreover, you...if you lose this clothing, you still have money.
You still have the skills to earn money, right?
You still have the skills to earn money. You can still go buy a better clothing. But our Junjun
doesn't have this ability of yours to earn money. You--
Auntie, my money and skills didn't just fall from the sky.
I got them all from so many years of enduring hardships and doing hard work.
If your daughter want to have a good life,
she can think of depending on her own and not relying on some man.
- Sorry.- No...
If I still have any words about the lessons I got from my life experiences,
I am thinking...
there is actually one thing. Women actually...
Women should still rely a bit on men.
Although these words are unpleasant to hear, they really are my honest advice.
You...in your future life, think carefully about
if these words I said were reasonable. Okay?
I happened to have called for a car earlier.
If you are in a rush to go home and cook,
just ride this car first. Okay?
Okay. That...the car fee...
I've already paid for it.
- Can I go anywhere?- You can go anywhere.
Okay. I'll go look for He Han then.
Go now. Hurry and get in the car.
Oh, my god, the time...
Hello. Where are you going?
I...am looking for Unit 22.
There are no one inside Unit 22 right now.
- No one is at home?- Right.
- May I ask for a pen and paper?- I have them.
Okay.
Thank you.
He Han,
if you still are diilly-dallying
and can't dare to marry the person you really love,
then you surely will regret it when you get old.
Cannot die in...
close one's eyes.
Right now, I have already treated you as my future son-in-law.
Hope you won't let me down.
What are you looking at?
I wrote this letter and let me tell you, you also should remember this.
You must not do things that you will regret.
If you do not listen to the words of the elders, you surely will regret it afterwards.
Let me tell you. Give all of these later to Unit 22's owner, He Han.
- Okay? Thank you then.- Okay.
Oh, right, where do I go to get to the subway?
Just turn right after going out the gates and you'll get there after 100 meters.
- Get out these gates, right?- Right.
It's quite near, right?
Okay then. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.
You're still waiting?
The boss is searching so it's later than usual.
I don't think you should wait
Isn't this because of Luo Zijun's situation?
I do feel sorry for you
I'm just worried about Luo Zijun's future.
I know you all say it's none of my business.
But even without Luo Zijun, there's our child.
Today, I don't care if it's awkward or not
I want to clarify this with He Han, face to face.
Luo Zijun and Tang Jing
He can only assume responsibility for one of them. Do you think so?
In this world, who would dare to assume responsibility for the other person
is there anyone like this?
I've seen how responsible you are with Luoluo.
I definitely can't take responsibility for her!
I can only take care of her for a period but not for her entire life.
You see you..have to be responsible for your wife,
be responsible towards your ex-wife,
towards the two children of both wives
and towards your own parents.
You also have to be responsible for your teammates
towards heaven, towards earth
and towards your clients too, right?
It's dead tiring!
Let's not talk about it.
When I finished this glass of wine
I won't even ask about Luo Zijun and He Han's matters.
Don't say...
I can be responsible for your glass of wine
It's my shout.
Thanks Old Zhuo.
- Hello. Welcome!
What's the matter? I haven't arrived yet and you want to leave?
The drink is getting to my head so I'm leaving.
Come..come...come. I know your capacity for alcohol.
Sit down and have a drink
Don't you have something to ask me?
Everything's okay. I don't need to ask now.
Has Old Zhuo spoken to you?
What Old Zhuo said makes perfect sense.
Logically speaking,
These matters indeed has nothing to do with me.
You've said that you can never solve the problem
perhaps I may be unable to solve it too.
My concern made it more messy
So I'll await the result instead.
Bai Guang, bring the wine
Come..
You can join us for a drink as there are no customers here.
Come..
Bring a glass
Come He Han..I want to congratulate you.
Both of us may become family in future
What family? Who has been saying all this nonsense?
Do I even need to listen to anyone?
Wasn't this the topic that you've been talking with Old Zhuo for the past every two to three days that you come here?
I am also someone that has been there. Come. Come.
Come Junsheng
Chen Junsheng...my ex brother-in-law.
What do you think?
Are you happy for Zijun?
She's finally going to have an even brighter future.
Right..I'm happy for her.
Bai Guang. What are you doing?
All okay. Nowadays people
are like Bai Guang, frank and outspoken
I don't mind it so don't let it bother all of you too.
The things I have done, the people I like,
there's nothing to fear in confessing.
Annoying!
Be brave in being yourself
You know..
Chen Junsheng...please don't mind me saying
If you ask me, I will connive with my wife
and my mother-in-law and do some mental work on Zijun.
You know what my mother-in-law is like
You know her too.
She will tie up Luo Zijun and bring her to the temple to be married to you.
You just wait.
Right...all of you
We're already closing.
Right..Luoluo
You've really become the lady boss now? You even dare to drive me out too?
When I say that we're closing, we're closing.
Okay then..we'll go outside to drink
Right...let's all go together.
Come on..
Give us a few more bottles!
"In The Pouring Rain" by Ye Linsheng
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, watching you as you leave ♫
♫ Why do I feel my heart slightly wavering? ♫
♫ When did I start becoming used to your presence? ♫
♫ Your calls always appear at the perfect time ♫
♫ My heart has sold me out ♫
♫ I still have a little hope ♫
♫ that you will come back, searching for me ♫
♫ In the torrential rain, among the busy cars ♫
♫ Why is the image of your face still so clear? ♫
♫ I hold my breath, watching you as you run towards me ♫
♫ My heart is slightly wavering ♫